MATE

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I did this Work for many reasons one was I just love the beauty of the Beijing Opera. her Art, her Voice, her movements. A Universe next of ours frozen in Time.

Cold,
Cant say, Cant find Words to tell how cold.
Without you beside my Steps. Snowflakes fall like Souls.
I killed you with a Sword of Words. Cut you deep and Bleed myself into you.

It makes me sad to see you so…
alone in the Snow…

Lin Hui Jun is a Hong Kong Girl who is living and study in Beijing, Her Major is Fashion design.

There was this Childish Fun we had, She made many funny Faces. It was Hilarious, we laughed so hard. I even made a Video of it.

She is born in the 90ths so she present for me the new China, It will be a very different one than the old one for this i am sure.

Be a Girl in China feels heavy. The only Child, all pressure and Dreams of Parents and family. Be a Modern Student and Worker but  be a Traditional Wife and Mother.

Feeling overcome and Depressed, Like a Child of Asphalt after a Cold Rain.

It doesn’t look like but this is really one of the hardest Photo shoots i ever done so far.
Its made in a Girls-room…

UKI is a 23 Years old Girl, Today She just Graduated from School so she invited me to come to her Home and do some Photos. UKI live together with her Mom, her Father dont live with them together, they divorce and he has a new Family with new Child’s.

Also UKI has a very nice Dog which I really should Photograph as well She is a Giant Husky.

Anyway we just started and play around, sometimes the Door made some sounds and we get very worried her Mom would come into the Room. UKI started her Computer to play loud Trance Music. That should be enough to hold Parents out of the Room. Her Desk has all this typical Girl things, and her QQ runs all the time with her Friend chatting with her so, that from time to time She jump up to answer a MSG. Stuffed animals, some not crazy many.

We started very slow and She was very shy, She let me Inspect her wardrobe and I pic out some clothes for her.

It is the first time I visit a Girl-Room, I visit Girls who live alone but never a Girl who live with her Parent together, Its not that i don’t want. In fact is my dream since many Years to do that. But Parents in China are very Protective and they don’t allow males in the Room of there Daughters.

UKI is a really cute Tom Boy Girl, very smart and very protective for other. I really enjoyed have her around me. It is the first time we meet but I felt very familiar with her.

The last thing what will remain from us is a reflection of lights Shadow. The Shadow of Light is a Photograph. It will be there, not moving. Freeze a Moment a feeling. It depends on the Viewer strongly… but some truth cant be changed. Often we don’t wanna be Photographed because we know, how far a decision like this can be, and in the same time we want, we want so much….We needed Trillions of Years to Evolve from Stardust to what we are now. We don’t want be just disappear in the Dark, without being a Shadow of Light.

Separation,

I cut your Eyes I cut your Nose I cut your Lips…
This is just a Nightmare, time to go sleep

In separated Beds

To proud a separated heart

separated Souls
separated Lovers
separated Futures

this is just a Nightmare time to sleep
time to sleep

We Played around that Night.
Than we saw this Car with the Black License number on the front.

That means its a Car of a Chinese Government Member. So I think its OK we climb on it and use it for Photos.

Bian LeLe and I was chatting about love and the unpredictable future.

to sad I cant get Polaroid Film anymore. But in Case someone like to support me. I would be happy

I was walking near my Place, when I was on my Way to cross the Street, there was this Girl standing beside me. She wear a Kind of Black Punk Look. Beijing is the main Capital for Punk in China. Will not say She is a Punk but that style reminds me of it strongly.

So I got my thinking again.

Ask her don’t ask. I just have seconds left to decide before we cross the street and I loose her in the Crowed.

So I ask and a few Days later we meet and did Photos.
She is a very special Girl I just cant figure her out, and it doesn’t matter I cant figure out myself…

Towers High in Beijing’s Paper Sky. Growing and Blocking the Eyes from looking Far away.

The Beijing Opera was is a World where Gender change and transformation is a traditional part. Even it is wished that the Man act a Girl and a Girl was later encouraged to play the Man roll.

So I call it a Forbidden tradition of China.

This City don’t exist now.
How can I say that about a so old City like Beijing? I can I see it with my own Eyes. I am here now. Just Fractions who growing and trying to come together. Old China and New China.

Beijing is in a state of rebirth. parts are dying, Parts see first time the Sun over the City.

The People are from all over China, the World. I am a Observer of this Process. I hold it in Photographs.

There is a curtain pressure in Beijing,
its the pressure which is to feel when you go to school,
Work, Subway, Park its no matter where its the pressure of the Mass.

U be pushed in Corners, you be one of many.

To find a Self seems far away, A weight on the Shoulders. Carry the Future and find your Place in Society.

Most People in Beijing are not from here, Tai Mei Ai is from the South of China,
I forgot the name of her Hometown.
Her Parents don’t let her meet other Boys so that she concentrate just on Study.
But her Parents are far away.
With 21 She still didn’t kissed a Boy.

We spend a Day together with talking and doing Photos.
We walking at the Hu Tongs of Wu dao ku.

Old Houses like a Echo between the new Buildings here.


Sitting on the Top of a Roof looking, seeing Waves of Humans walking under us by.
We got some Space, some Individual Moments. Not new for Humanity but new for us now.


I kiss her, She kiss me first time.

Buy a Apartment, Buy a Car, Buy Brand Fashion.Buy Buy just the best.

The American Dream is awake in China. The Sleeping Dragon buy Coca Cola. Following these Idols like a Religion.

having more and more wants, without thinking about the needs.

How Cold this Night, I remember so cold and a start of a Year, which had much depression. Many Friends of mine lost there Jobs or had to Work more. I couldn’t know that this Night, and I couldn’t care. The Excitement we had that Night Half Naked Outside on Places where we would be easily spotted. It was a Start in a Year, The Year of the Cow.

I did this Work for many reasons one was I just love the beauty of the Beijing Opera. her Art, her Voice, her movements. A Universe next of ours frozen in Time.

The other Reason was at 2010 was a Competition to Mr gay Universe, in the World. First time in History China wanted to join. It would be a huge opening to the free minded World. But in the last Moment Chinese Government stopped. So there was no Gay from China to join.